A Big Sigh

There was a team meeting today.

Lowell was asking for update on Standard Change Recertification. She called out, “Pik Hung?

Without realising it, I gave a long and big ‘sigh’. Everyone else got amused and started laughing.

Leen asked, “Why, Pik Hung?” and so did Lowell.

And, I started to give my updates. I’m not sure if I have given a good update.

This project was supposed to be handled by Leen. He will be moving to a new team next week. I’m the new scapegoat to take over this from him. The handover process started a few weeks ago. I have not been involved in this before. So, I have trouble catching up when it all started. It seems like he is rushing it off.

At the end of the meeting, we had a short farewell session for Leen. He gave his thoughts. Then, Lowell asked each of us to say something about the handover process.

It will not look good to say what I really want to say. So, I just said thank you for his support in the handover. But it is nice of him to offer for me to reach out to him whenever I need too, even if he is with a different team. Well, I’m not sure if his offer is sincere. I’d think it’s all out of courtesy.

Before I ended, I said, “I hope I am not going to screw this up.

I’d guess it’s because of my current health condition, everyone has been very accommodating. Everyone goes, “Why, Pik Hung? Don’t worry. We are all here to help.



Back to Reality

As much as I hate it, I am back to work! It’s a hell hole.

I have been dreading for this days since weeks before today. It shows how unwilling of me to be back to work. But on the bright side, I can work from home until my next check-up in January. πŸ™‚

A lot of people had been updating me on things happened in the office. There are goods and there are bads. And how can we leave gossips out? There are a lot of changes too since I was out.

Everyday when I thought of today, negativity starts swarming me. It’s to a point that my best friend, Ann had to keep reminding me to talk to someone and be positive.

It was a quiet return which is what I wanted. No one message me on OCS or wish me ‘Welcome Back’ on group chat. Honestly, that was great.

I had a call with Si Khei, my peer, to brief me on some tasks. My new manager asked her to handover a simple task to me first as she’s worried that I would be still weak.

Had a quick lunch and quick workout before going back to my desk. I will try to keep my usual routine as much as possible by adjusting the time between work and lunch break.

Nimmi, my peer in Chennai, messaged me and asked how I am doing. She also said that her sister-in-law had GBS few years ago and did physical therapy for 6 months. She researched a lot on GBS. A least there is someone who understand what I had gone through. She gave me a lot of encouragements.

I chatted with few close ones. Well, I would say today is a peaceful day and hopefully it will stay like this for many days to come.


Day 1 @ SCB


Another Beginning

A week long holiday is gonna end soon and tomorrow will be a new beginning. I’m not sure if this is how I felt before my first day with HP.

My feeling now? It’s like a flat like with few up-hike occasionally. It’s not that I’m not happy with the new job or feel excited. I’m able to relax perhaps I knew that I have somebody I know in there and there will always be help in case I need it. Unless they don’t want to help me. πŸ˜› People rarely feel excited when they are about to enter a new, unfamiliar environment. They should be scared or nervous but I’d guess the excitement covered it all.

Someone once hinted at me, not to mind if people are saying that I go there because I want to be with them. Of course, she knew that it was not the reason why I applied and accepted the offer or it’s because that I am desperate to get a new job. Maybe a little but thinking back, if I was desperate, I would have accepted previous offers instead but I know what are my priorities. Thus, I never did until this offer.

I do not have the obligation to explain my actions to anyone else except myself and perhaps my family. If I am able to brush things off just like that. πŸ™‚

Wishing myself all the best and smooth sailing ahead with a new beginning!

The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.


Farewell HP

Most of my colleagues are staying far away from me – PJ, Subang, Ampang and etc. They came all the way to Kepong for my farewell dinner. Actually, it was Sky who suggested to go to Menjalara’s Ketam Steamboat Restaurant for dinner. There were Sky, Lai, Bryan, Gan, Poh Keong + wife and Stanley + GF. We talked, laughed and joked… comparing to yesterday’s lunch… duh~

Going out with these bunch will never end with just dinner. They decided to go for second round at OverTime nearby (Wisma Fiamma). Coincidentally, Billy was attending a wedding dinner next door and he joined us after that. The guys were enjoying among themselves while I talked with the 2 ladies + Lai. Haha! He had sex change that night. We had a mini barrel of Starker and a bucket of Tiger, which tasted awful when mixed with leftover Starker.

It was almost 1am when we finally called it a day. At least everyone was still sober and safe to drive home.


Last Day @ HP

Yesterday was my last day with HP. Alright, it was not as joyful as I would want it to be. I wanted it to be as low profile as it could be. My closer bunch of colleagues planned for a farewell lunch, with Jacky coming early before his shift starts. We could never guess that Boss suggested the same thing. She wanted to go earlier, at 12pm so that they can make it back for a 2pm meeting.

I was seriously hoping Jacky would come in after 1pm but unfortunately he came super early. We asked him to go hide somewhere so that Boss will not see him and still believing that we are waiting for Jacky. But… it was too late when Boss came back from morning meeting and saw him. “Let’s go,” she said.

Okay, lunch with her was not that bad actually. This made it bad. Before going, she stood in front of my desk (Raymond’s actually), while looking left and right, at Jacky’s and Gan’s direction and said, “Today is your last day ya. So you got to decide where and what to eat.”

“Anything will do,” I responded. While trying to act cute and looking at Jacky, she asked “Is there any shops called ‘Anything’? No, right?”

“Yes, there is. In Singapore, I’d believed.” No idea why Jacky answered. She pissed me off and I think I blew it a little by raising my tone telling her, “Hey, seriously, we can go anywhere and eat”… in my head, of course. Lai was beside me and he sensed the anger from my face expression.

I prayed that she do nothing to piss me off again, else I’m gonna blow up for real. Sadly, she did it again. We went to Restoran 228 at Dengkil for ala-carte. She said to everyone, “She has to order everything today. So later pass the menu to her ya.” Okay, fine. I’ll play along. There were photos of 6 dishes on the main page of the menu. I looked at the waiter and told her, “Everything on this page, please.”

I was not sure if she sense it or she was just playing dumb with me. At the end, I ordered 2 dishes and the rest by Lai, as he knew I was pissed off. This was an awkward lunch.

Back in the office, I was busy clearing the stuffs in my laptop, uninstalling non-HP programs and applications; and drafting my farewell email πŸ™‚ I packed my bag at 16:30 as I have to pass my laptop and stuffs to Helen. When Boss saw me, she insisted to leave my laptop with them. I knew what they will do with it. Coincidentally, Helen walked over and she asked her. I was so happy when Helen asked me to pass to her later.

I got Lai to tagged along as I need an escort. Once I returned my tag to Helen, I will be locked in the office. So I need Lai’s tag to get out. Out of formality, I think it is better to just tell her that I will be going and a last goodbye. Bad decision. The usual stuffs, ‘all the best’ and ‘good luck’. Kit, while typing on his keyboard, says “sure not going to think about it?” and smirked. She was around too, asked “Taken photo already?” Shit! She handed her camera to Lai. Took one with Bryan. Then she said she want one too. I had an awkward smile. Lastly, one with Lai. She asked me to go around and take photo with everyone. Seriously, that was the reason why I want to leave quietly. I am not some kind of big shot in the team and I don’t like to go around and announcing my last day.

I went down to my car to pack my laptop into its original box which I have kept for a year plus; parking sticker, transponder, ActivKey and access tag into an envelope. Then Lai and I headed to 5th floor to pass these to Helen. I think I have startled her. Before this, she came to our floor with boss and asked, “When are you planning ti come up and see me? Or you are planning to leave just like that?” She surprised me although she was just kidding. I told her I will see her after 16:30. Again, the usual stuffs but from Helen, I sensed sincerity. Before leaving, she gave me a hug *awww* and offered to get me downstairs (I have returned my access card) but I told her that I’ve brought an escort, pointing at Lai.

Goodbye HP! Hope I’ll be back one day! πŸ™‚

Techie Work

Star Wars in Text!

A colleague shared an e-mail while monitoring agent’s ticket. Apparently, this agent sent the below e-mail to a user to check on her telnet issue.

Sent: Thursday, November 24, 2011 2:42AM
Subject: [GSD] Telnet test


Regarding the call earlier to confirm on the telnet issue. Here is a fun way to test out if telnet client is working or not.

Kindly run below command:


This is watching Star Wars in Text via Telnet.

If you are able to view the results then it means that telnet is working fine which we do not have to reinstall the telnet as advice by the support team.

Looking forward to your reply.

I thought it was a joke shared among the team but he did really send it to the user and the telnet command actually worked. I tried it on my PC and honestly, I wouldn’t want to do it again. The text is too much. Here’s a screenshot:


Unfair My Foot!

What will you do first if you want to resign from your current job? You would talk to your manager, wouldn’t you? Your reporting manager, that person’s name in the box above yous, connected with a solid line. Right? I did that today, to officially initiate my so-called disengagement process.

My situation is a little different. See, I used to worked and report to Manager Selfish (Let’s call her that). Then, there was an organisational restructure and I was aligned to a new team under Manager I-Think-Right but still doing the same job for Manager Selfish. Some times later, Manager I-Think-Right did a bad job and Manager Aussie took over. She is a fine manager, as far as I’m concerned. So, even in this situation, you would still need to talk to your direct manager, right? In my case, Manager Aussie.

I need to get all these sorted out so that I can start my new job as soon as possible. I do not have the obligation to inform Manager Selfish of my resignation but since I am still doing work for her account and out of courtesy and respect, I decided to inform her. I called on her mobile as she was away on medical leave. It was fine in the beginning of the call but her tone immediately took a sharp U-turn when she knew that I have talked to Manager Aussie. She said in Mandarin, “δ½ θΏ™ζ ·εšοΌŒεΎˆδΈε…¬εΉ³ε’§” — meaning what I did was unfair to her. I think she has forgotten that I am not her direct report anymore. But what the fuck. It’s my career for God’s sake. Why do I have to care whether this is fair or not. With the Concierge project on hold and giving us no specific time frame but just a “on hold, standby, any time”, she expect me to stay? She also said what I did made her look bad. Like I care.

Since she has such perception of me, I no longer need to be nice with her. I’ll need to prepare for her return next week.