Great Everyone but Useless Me
Posted by p_h | Filed under Personal
A lot of things happened lately which are not a very good one. My overall mood for these few months has been very down. Mom has sleepless night, Dad putting a tough face in front of us and pretending nothing is happening, Bro is brave by selling his beloved Jazz to make things better. Me? I did nothing. In fact, there is nothing I can do to contribute.
Regretting for being a spender in the past and not putting up a fund for times like this. In the mean times, I do questions my Dad’s decision for not speaking up on unnecessary things. I am pissed off with people who doesn’t think for others.
These few days, Bro is sending his car on and off workshop to remove his audio systems and additional spare parts. Finally, he handed over his car yesterday to the dealer. During these few days, I did notice his reluctance.
I asked, “Why sell?”
“If not, how?”, he replied.
After that, we were discussing about this and I felt the rush.
For me, I don’t like to let people to see the real me or let them know how I feel and what I’m thinking. I don’t have many friends, let alone one that I can trust and considered a true friend except them. Every now and then, my Facebook and MSN statuses are filled with negative statements. People did asked but I never have the thought of telling them. I’d just brush them off by saying “Oh, it’s a friend of mine”.
One day, I confided in them. She is someone I can tell everything and cry my heart out and one that is willing to hear me out.
…
Mom and Dad looks tired and it feels like they’re getting older than they should.
It’s the best!
Posted by p_h | Filed under State Of Mind
When you have a fucked up day. It’s the best to have sips of cooling beer under the bright and starry sky by the beautiful lake. It clears the mind.
Conversation With A Super Bitch
Posted by p_h | Filed under Work
This is a damn bad day. I got a call from a bitch, a damn Penang bitch.
You know you are not some big shot of the company and even the CEO follow the procedures. What the heck is “I don’t care what is the policy. I’m not able to work since yesterday till now. I want a high priority and I want the support to call me NOW!”??
The Story
Initially, she has some network problem. Fixed. God knows how the local FE got involved and caused PGP not working. Bitch called and says she can’t login to the Windows after the PGP screen (the encryption program), the system just hung. Asked her to restart, said she has been restarting for so many, many times. The way she talked is rude and I’m not good either. Bad mood. At the end, she want to complain and escalate and I happily gave and spelt my name to her.
The Conversation
BITCH : I can’t login to my Windows now *pissed off*
ME : What are the error messages?
BITCH : Windows cannot login.. bla bla bla login script
ME : Can you restart the PC?
BITCH : How many times you want me to restart???
*silent*
BITCH : It hangs.
ME : Is your laptop on a docking station?
BITCH : Yes.
ME : Please remove the laptop from docking?
BITCH : *grumbling* it still hangs
ME : Can you force restart it?
BITCH : AGAIN???
*silent*
BITCH : I can’t restart it. It just hang.
ME : Restart again, please.
BITCH : I can’t restart!
ME : Just press and.. *got cut*
BITCH : It won’t let.. *cut her back*
ME : … hold on the power button.
BITCH : Cannot.
ME : Please remove the battery and put it back again
BITCH : How many times you ppl want me to restart?!?!!?
ME : You have to restart as it is not responding.
BITCH : WHAT NOW?
ME : It seems to be cause by PGP. I will need to log a case to the PGP team for further assistance.
BITCH : I want it NOW!
ME : I will raise the priority and tag this case as urgent, request the team to proceed immediately.
*knowing what she will ask*
I am not able to tell you when exactly they will respond but once they receive the case, they will proceed immediately.
BITCH : I want them on the line now!
ME : Unfortunately, we do not have their direct number.
BITCH : How?
ME : We communicate through ticketing system. So once they receive the case, they will respond to you.
BITCH : I want them to call me NOW!
ME : I’m afraid this is not possible as we are working in a different team and location and I can’t promise you on behalf of them.
BITCH : THEN?
ME : Once they have receive this case, they will respond to you.
BITCH : Where can I escalate this?
ME : You can raise the escalation with the Service Delivery Managers.
BITCH : Where can I get their contact?
ME : You can locate from it.agilent.com
BITCH : *raising her voice* I can’t access to network, how can I check???
ME : You can ask for your colleague’s help.
BITCH : Everyone is very busy, who to help me?????
ME : *boh song already* It is just a simple search, right?
BITCH : I want to complain. What is your name?
ME : *calmly and very precisely* My name is Pik Hung. P.I.K.H.U.N.G.
BITCH : Bye *period*
What Am I To You?
Posted by p_h | Filed under State Of Mind
It makes me wonder all the times or maybe I do that too much. Have you ever think how much you weigh in other people’s heart? To think this is useless as you’ll never know what is the answer.
A Chance of Change
Posted by p_h | Filed under Work
Before Chinese New Year break, I was given a chance to participate in a new role in GSD. I was asked to prepare a proposal for GSD training and the due date is the last Friday of February. Today is the last Monday and yet I have only done 2 pages of the proposal. I couldn’t think of anything as it my brain’s dead.
*dead*
God, please help me~
9th Day of CNY - 拜天公
Posted by p_h | Filed under Personal
Today’s the 9th day of Chinese New Year – the big day for the Hokkien clan as this day is said to be the real “first-day-of-new-year” for us. The elders always say 初九大過年 in Hokkien.
The arrival of Anabelle is indeed the happiest moment for our family but due to the customs, especially during Chinese New Year, celebrations are expected to be minimal. Thus, I’ve slept through from the 30th night to the noon of 1st day. Every year, we would stayed up until the clock strike 12am (the earliest, depends on the “lucky” time of the year) to receive the God of Fortune. After that, we would serve tea Mom and Dad and they would give us angpao in return. This could last until wee hour of 3am.
From this day onward, we would have relatives and friends over to our house. This year, only a few came as most of them need to worship the Jade Emperor (天公) and they can’t come to our house. It is said if you been to the house of someone who has given birth, you will not be able to receive the god you are worshipping. Today is the day and we are not celebrating. I am feeling kind of disappointed though. Me, Mom, Bro, Sis-in-law and of course Anabelle were watching the live telecast of 歡喜拜天公 while hearing blasting of fireworks outside when the clock stroked 12. Well, Dad was sleeping in his room. After the show, we all headed back to our own room and sleep except me, writing this.
We should be expecting a busy and a little more lively moments after today as those who are not able to visit us are able to do so now.
Well, it shouldn’t be this bad though. At least, I’ve got a gift!! =D
I got this mug when she passed me back my mobile phone this evening. It is a very lovely mug and I don’t think I will even utilise it… ^_^
A Very Special and Happy Chinese New Year!
Posted by p_h | Filed under Personal
This year’s New Year will be a little bit different. We won’t be receiving God of Fortune on the first day of Chinese New Year nor celebrating our big day on the 9th day of Chinese New Year (for Hokkien). It’s kind of disappointing since this would be the first time we celebrate CNY after we’ve moved to new house.
Even so, this year is a very special year for our family. A new addition to our family has arrived! My niece, Anabelle (Chinese name: 蘇武萱) was born on the last day of lunar calendar, January 25 at 12:54am, a healthy baby girl weighing 2.7kg. My sister-in-law was admitted to the hospital a day before yesterday. At 12:56am, I received the good news from my brother via SMS.
After the New Year preparation, Mom, Dad and I headed to the hospital to see their granddaughter and my niece. We stayed at the hospital until 4pm for the discharging process before we bring her and her mom back home.
CNY Shopping Spree
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I went for New Year shopping spree with Yen today. Initially, we planned to go to that Nike store at Pavilion to look for Yen’s England V-neck tee and to shop for my New Year stuffs. Unfortunately, we can’t find our thing there. So, we decided to go to a bigger and common place to go – Mid Valley. As Yen said that England tee is something extra for her and it’s not necessary to buy it. We went ahead to look for my stuffs instead. I do admit that I am a very choosy person. We went to most of the stores there but I can’t find the things I want.
Earlier at Pavilion, I saw a pair of jeans at GAP which is priced at RM329. Yen was very reluctant to let me buy it. So, she tried very hard to look for something more valued for me. I bought 3 pieces of undergarment from Jusco, a piece of V-neck tee from Nike. We continued to look for my jeans and very, very unfortunately, I can’t find anything that I like. Out of a little frustration, we decided to head to the 3rd place of the day – 1 Utama, our old place to shop. En route down to the basement, we strolled and looked for Nike store in The Garden. Lucky me, I found it and bought my 2nd piece of Nike tee. 
We had McDonald’s for our lunch/early dinner. Then, we continued with my hunt and at the end I’ve spent on a pair of pant from Pull and Bear, a pair of jean and a piece of tee from KitsChen. At around 8pm, I’ve decided to stop and head back home. While on our way, Yen asked “Will you tell me that you want to go to The Curve also”… Haha!
Back home, I calculated my total spending including those that I’ve bought before today – a total of RM1,200! There goes my next few months’ salaries…
Fragiled
Posted by p_h | Filed under State Of Mind
You know.. A lot of things has happened in these recent few years. Relationship has became very fragile. Like a warning notice always say, “Handle with care. Once broken, considered sold“, except it is nothing to be sold.
Interaction between friends are handled with much care since. Unnecessary things are to be left undone. Perhaps previously I’ve done a lot of unnecessary things. I’ve always thought if I do these, I may get the same return too, be it a thing or just merely a feeling of gratitude. Truth is, things will not turn out as what or how we want it to be.
Gradually, I’ve begun to learn to do less, care less and expect less. Maybe then I lead a more happier life without getting hurt too much, not by others but by myself.
Maybe..
“Best Friend”
Posted by p_h | Filed under State Of Mind
I used to hate this term. I loathed at the present of this term.
Why, you might asked? Long time ago, I used to have this best friend. We were so close to each other and we were like inseparable. I cherished this friend a lot, more than I would cherish myself. Then one day, I was being betrayed by this best friend. I do not want to go into details on how, what or when. The feeling when I was aware of this - something heavy dropped down on you and you can’t free yourself. I can’t believe this is what I get for being a best friend to others. From then onwards, I have became more protective of myself. I do not share my feelings or my true self to other people. For all these while, I have been closing myself to other people and became more introverted.
One day, I’ve received a new that she passed away. I went to her funeral and I guess all these feeling went along.
Last night, I was in a conversation with a “best friend” - which the term I do not hate and loathe at now. She and another best friend has redefined the meaning of “best friend” to me which I values a lot. We were mostly talking about this other best friend and the overall best friend thing. (Duh~) Nevertheless, both of them has opened up my closed inner world.
I’d believe my mom once said that I’d die for the sake of friend. I’d partially agree to that statement. If my aids are needed and within my capacity, I would definitely help as I believe this is what friends are for. I will never expect returns or expect to be treated the same way as I’ve treated them. So she told me that this best friend once confided that she isn’t sure what she did or what good she has that deserve such a friend like me.
I have no idea why too but I guess I’m doing it because I want to.
Dear friends,
Do not wonder why or whether you deserved it or not. I treat you as such is just for a very simple reason - you are my best friend. I’m not expecting the same from you back but just hope that I’ll be your best friend too.
Even though I’m not, thank you for being there when I’m out of my mind.
A sincere thanks again.
Loves, PH
