Partner deserve nice stuff!

Very true. Haha!


A Reason, A Season or A Lifetime?

People come into our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When we know which one it is, we will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in our life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need we have expressed.

They have come to assist us through a difficulty, to provide us with guidance and support, to aid us physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are.

They are there for the reason we need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on our part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force us to take a stand. What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire has been fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer we sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into our life for a season, because our turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring us an experience of peace or make us laugh. They may teach us something we have never done. They usually give us an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real but only for a season.

Lifetime relationship teach us lifetime lessons, things we must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Our job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what we have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of our life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

I hope you came for not just a reason, but also stays for a lifetime.


‘New Disease’

Another MRI result.

The original white patch is at C4-C6 of my spine. it is a little enhanced, and extended further down to T1, as well as the nerve root.

This means the disease is still very active. It also means this is a new disease which the doc doesn’t know what it is yet or what caused it since all my blood tests came back negative.

The chest pain? It may be due to to either the steroid, the immunosuppressant, or because of this ‘new disease’.

I don’t like the word ‘disease’.

And… I am getting another new medication again. This time, it’s called neurontin, a nerve medication. Don’t know what is its function. Just eat then.

State of Mind

A little haywired

I am beginning to have doubt about people.

Doubtful of everything.

What is real? What is fake?



Follow up.. follow up..

Yet another visit to the hospital.

Another test results.

Vitamin D is way too low.

Need more sunshine.

You are my sunshine~
My only sunshine~

Everyday State of Mind

May the best of today be the worst of tomorrow

May you be as fascinating as a slap bracelet
May you keep the chaos and the clutter off your desk
May you have unquestionable health and less stress
Having no possessions though immeasurable wealth
May you get a gold star on your next test
May your educated guesses always be correct
And may you win prizes shining like diamonds
May you really own it each moment to the next
And may the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows
And may the road less paved be the road that you follow


Steroid’s New Buddy

About today’s visit – doc said there is a possibility it can develop into a brain tumor, and affect functions like speech, swallowing, etc. But it’s still too early to tell.

At least one good news – steroid got reduced from 60 mg to 40 mg.

Happy? Nah…. too soon.

Steroid got reduced, but she is giving me another new medication.

It’s called CellCept, to suppress my immune system.

Guess it’s too strong until it attacks my own body.

Don’t get too comfortable.

Same as steroid, do your work and get out of my way as soon as possible.


My First Steroid


I’m not happy to be acquainted with you.

I have no choice but to embrace you for until god-know-when.

Please get done with your job as soon as possible.

And leave me alone.


Off to the Beach!

Not that breezy and fun beach, and not that I like beach much.

Today’s the day I am meeting this neurologist+researcher at Pantai Hospital KL.

Yeah, that ‘beach’. Literally.

Brought all my past scans, and test results.

She showed her powerpoint slides with details of similar illness, and past patients.

It’s like some business presentation.

So, this Dr Shanthi actually based in HKL but has a clinic here at Pantai on every Saturday. She flipped through all my test results, peeked at my past MRI scans.

Her summary – the symptoms I am having are considered mild but it may progress rapidly. The nerve inflammation may spread up to the brain. She suggested to redo all the tests.

The treatment? Steroid! For LIFE!

It won’t completely cure it but steroid will control it so that it won’t get worse.


Happy Birthday

We have not met.

But somehow we get along like we have known each other for ages.

Weeks ago, I came across a kinda cute birthday card. It has an owl on the front. People say owl brings luck and happiness. Bought it but not sure why I bought it even when I know it cannot be given to you physically.

Anyway, there are a lot that I wanted to write in that card but space is limited. 

Here I wish this special friend a happy birthday.

I wish there will be soon a day you will find joy and happiness, and everyday fill with loads of wonderful things in life.

And, thank you for being there to listen to my craps.